Tired of Pretending (Spoken Word): Episode 350

Send us a text It’s the armor of perfection I try to put on, the mistakes that I make are becoming my best friend. Those who have hurt me, I have given too many chances and now I pull back and archive It"s time for me to heal to prevent myself from bleeding out.  pretending everything is ok, deep down I feel like I"m drowning. hiding behind my smiles and I can’t stop living in my head.  God I"m so tired of pretending to be ok when clearly, I"m not…each day it’s the same thing…  I understand that faith without works is dead. It’s the fear that I"m feeling…..the fear makes me want to take control every time I don’t see a way out..  The hardest part of suffering is realizing majority of it comes from my own free will and it seems at time accountability is what I"m lacking most I feel my heart palpitating and I feel like I can’t breathe. I don’t know what to do next…  When I don’t feel you, it may be you testing my faith… but it"s also the things I"m doing,  Dear God, I"m panicking just help me please? If this is what takes to surrender, then God please just take it all  I need you now more than ever, and now I surrender. Stay Blessed ©2025 Soul Healer17:77, LLC. All Rights Reserved. Any copying of this poetry and audio in whole or part is prohibited. *I do not own the rights to the royalty free music* Music info: Emotional Piano Ballad Type Beat - "Storm" By Matthew May Support the show